recently i have been letting my quiet time be guided by various sermons. a few weeks ago i discovered apple podcasts (has that always been on my phone?) and listen to them almost every time i’m in my dorm.
i’ve been learning a lot, to say the least. the further i dive into discovering the Father’s heart, the sweeter my relationship with Him becomes. as i listen to others teach of His love and read His word, i like to paint. no, i am not very good at it, but it is something i enjoy to do.
i didn’t even know what i was doing at first. i just painted as i listened to sermons; i painted in between readings; i painted as i listened to music. normally it was just a few words. sometimes a full sentence.
i eventually realized what those words meant. they were words that i feel the Father is singing over my heart and life in this season. the first one? “there is room at my table for you”. the most recent? “i love your song”.
there are a lot of things i enjoy doing. i like being a friend. i like to paint. i like to dance. i like to sing. i like to write. i like to play sports. i like to do missions.
yet i never feel very good at any of these things. i constantly feel like i am striving for a goal or a status that i will never reach. i constantly look around and think “who do i think i am? that girl/guy is a much better singer/dancer/writer/student than me. why do i even try?” i ask the Lord over and over and over again what i’m good at and what His plan is for me. what am i supposed to be doing? why do i constantly feel inadequate?
then i heard a sweet, soft whisper from my Dad. “allison…i love your song. i love that song!!! can you sing it again? i love when you sing!” it hit me like a ton of bricks. Jesus loves the songs that i sing. in fact, He desires to hear them. no matter what i’m doing, when i am glorifying Him with my actions and words and thoughts, He loves it.
now i cannot get the thought out of my mind. i feel the Lord constantly singing it over me. yesterday i was doing homework and could not for the life of me find the motivation to do it. i sighed and leaned back in my chair. i love this song. sing it again. i love when you use your gifts for me, even when it’s just being committed to school. i love this song.
my encouragement for you is this – He loves the song you sing. maybe you’re a stay-at-home mom. maybe you’re faithful in serving at your church. maybe you’re on the mission field or maybe you work an office job. but no matter where you are, when you’re glorifying Him, He LOVES that song. every time we cast our crowns at His feet and tell Him we love Him, He puts the crowns right back on our heads and says “no, i love YOU! sing me that song again!”
Jesus delights in the songs you sing. keep singing it.